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Inactivity

2013-09-08 04:48:23 by JKAmovies

Boy has it been a while now... To those (if any) who know or remember me I thought it would be courteous to express my reasoning behind my sudden inactivity as of a year or so ago now...

Mainly, in regards to NDC (Notepad Drawing Collab)... I started that little project when I was in year 9 and about 16 years old. I started that and loved the fact of helping unknown artists get known through a collaborative Flash game... I liked it so much I did it 2 years after. However, the final NDC I started one and a half years back; I had very high hopes for, so much I actually started learning 3D animation as I wanted to make it a HUGE collaboration... But, in the end, I had only around 23 submissions... Barely enough to create a whole Flash game... Despite that fact though, I still wanted to finish it. By the point where I actually started coding, animating and designing the collab (I think I got about half of it all finished), year 12 (my final year of schooling) began and I found fast approaching an intensity of assignment school work. Ontop of that I was working hard with a fellow coder making a game. This game was one of the, if not the biggest Flash project I had ever worked on (I think I made a NG post about it a while ago). It was nearing about 90% completion and (literally) a whole years work when the coder decided on a big, spontaneous 'NO' on finishing. That was it for him and he did not see the point finishing. This was the first time I was actually excited about finishing a game with a coder after failing 3 other times with other coders. I think in someway, psychologically, it pushed me to a point where I felt I was somewhat not good enough to animate and draw... After that I literally just stopped and my inactivity with animation and NG went on it's way to nothing. From that point it only got worse with some very close family members passing, friendship and social life changing and personal depression along to overcome while dealing with a 24/7 workload in school. It was an unsettling time of my life and took a toll on my persistence for animating on Newgrounds.

By the end of year 12 I had got my drivers license, bought a car, started my own business, as well as started a proper casual position at work and, mainly... Started university. I am now 18 (almost 19) years old, and am studying architectural design... For those who remember me, I would have probably been that little 16 year old who could draw and animate alright and liked making and joining collabs, aha! ;p

I feel sad that I left this behind... I barely ever draw anymore (apart from architecture), little alone EVER animate either. I was looking through my old "NG - Animation & Art" folder on my computer the other day and felt a deep saddening that I left all of that behind. Within that folder I found that I had around 4 game ideas, all already half animated and drawn as well as copious amounts of half finished drawings just sitting in old digital dust on my PC... I would like to start again, maybe finish some of those old files and games but I just dawn I ever will find the time to.

Anywho... I guess the main reason behind this post is to produce an explanation for those who wondered where I disappeared to after being so overly active on Newgrounds, why the final NDC never reached completion and pretty much just to say, I miss Newgrounds and animating :'(


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bigjonny13bigjonny13

2013-09-08 11:38:28

It's been a while Josh, far too long.
Keep in touch man, I can help you out if you need anything (with what little I can haha), but yeah, welcome back and stay strong, I have faith.

JKAmovies responds:

Hey buddy :D Yes it has indeed been much TOO long ;p

Thanks heaps man, that means heaps to me :) Will definitely keep in tough and hopefully get back to where I left off ;D


ReNaeNaeReNaeNae

2013-09-08 12:05:16

Hi!! Thanks for the update! I wondered what happened to you. I had started something for the NDC, but then you sort of vanished, so I never fully finished it.

I can relate to the folder full of incomplete projects... but it's nothing to be sad about! Each one of those was a stepping stone that brought you to where you are right now... and it sounds like you're in a pretty good place. So... look back fondly and be proud of what you did and how much you've grown!!

Good luck with everything! :D

JKAmovies responds:

Aha! Yeah I know, I apologise for the disappearance, hence why I thought it would be good to inform people what happened and why :)

I didn't really think of it that way though, but you're right :D Thank you Nae, that means a lot. I'm hoping I can find more time to start posting work again :)


sirjeffofshortsirjeffofshort

2013-09-09 18:53:23

Haha, it's weird, I only come back and check NG every once in a great while, but I'm glad I was able to catch your post and to hear you're doing well.

Really enjoyed working with you in the past. No worries man, NG isn't everything. All the best to you in all your future work!


KitsyfluffKitsyfluff

2013-09-30 04:53:20

Good to hear an update from you! And wow I thought you were older than that, we're the same age.

Anyway, too bad NDC '11 couldn't come to fruition. is it not possible to continue it though(as in the annual collab in general)? Maybe a little less ambitious than 2011 was?

I could help you assemble it so it's not all on you, though my actionscript is a bit bleh (I'm still learning off and on). I'm always looking for people to help with flash stuff.


RhunycRhunyc

2015-06-05 06:36:42

Haha, only a couple years late on leaving a comment here..

But, I'm glad you left a little something for us to know you're doing alright. :) It is sad that your presence sort of hit an abrupt end, but shit does indeed like to happen quite often. It's good that, by the sounds of it, you've got some great things going in your life. I'm sure things have changed even further since you last shared this journal update!

I get a lot of bouts of inactivity on this website myself, so I understand how that goes.

Anyway, hope things are still going well!


kizza0kizza0

2015-07-22 05:13:03

Hey, I'm the dick who quit working on our game when it was literally 90% done! That was really selfish of me and I would like to apologize. I feel terrible that this contributed to the reason you left the community. Looking back at our PM's it looks like I lost interest in the game and couldn't bring myself to do the last 10%. I've since started a lot of personal projects (mostly games), but am yet to complete any major ones. Completing and releasing a game always takes the back seat to a new fun project, this is a weakness of mine. I'm glad I checked our old PM's because I realized that I sent you the .fla file and was able to get a copy (most of my old projects are lost). Your art looks awesome as always, my code is hilariously hacky, I'm just now remembering the dodgy, laborious job I did of implementing rag-dolls. I'm proud of it though, hope you are too. I have half a mind to dig into the files and make something worth releasing. I miss this place too.